The Struggle Is Real But So Is God

A little about me. I have been dealing with invisible/chronic illness for almost 7 years. 4 of the things I’m diagnosed with have no cure(Gastroparesis, IBS, Moderate Scoliosis, and Acquired Angioedema) so that’s why I trust and believe God to provide a way out of no way for me. I know he will carry me through. The way my illness goes is I feel unwell every single day but I go through relapses/flare ups which make my symptoms much worse for a period of time. These illnesses(plus whatever else I have that’s undiagnosed at this point) cause me symptoms such as diarrhea, constipation, muscle pain, joint pain, nerve pain, swelling, itchiness, burning sensation, redness, flaky skin, headaches, migraines, stiff joints, nausea, cramping, low energy, fatigue, exhaustion, tiredness, insomnia, lack of appetite, low appetite, fullness, bloating, weight loss, brain fog, and many more things. Despite all this, I press on in my life. I am so grateful for the love, support, and guidance I receive from loved ones and friends. It would be so hard to make it without them. Sometimes I want to lay down and not get up. But, I’m active in my church, I am passionate about living my life for God. I go to work, and I try to do things that interest me when I have free time. I keep a busy schedule. I am grateful to be able to still be functioning even though sometimes my body shuts down. Sometimes, I have to let my body get back to my base line. I know I need to practice better self care and not pushing myself so hard but I don’t want my life to pass me by. So, until I can’t do anything anymore, I will keep pushing. There is a reason I am selective with how I spend my time and who gets my time. I know I can’t do everything, I know I’m chronically ill at this point, and I know I’m not normal for my age. But, God is good and I fully and unwaveringly believe that. He loves me and it’s my hope in God that carries me when I can’t push. He’s brought me too far to leave me. These are my honest thoughts. 💜


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